I’m sorry…

Dear Reader,
You have been bamboozled. Hoodwinked. I underestimated my posting abilities and led you astray.

Things started off so well between us, and then I allowed things to come between our relationship. Things like an active toddler and his new vocabulary (including “a door!” purple, turtle, ‘brue’, pink, ‘bwack’, and cock…which is not clock like you think, but cock, because daddy is terrible.); work amd entering 50 transfers, their tax information, and transit deductions; a new year and its resolutions; and getting to my 32nd week of pregnancy,  only to be hospitalized (why do you think I’ve got time to post?).

Yeah, hospitalized. I started having contractions. I swore it was just gas, lol. I’m currently on magnesium to stop the contractions and keep baby baking for a few more weeks, insulin for my blood sugar, an IV for fluids, antibiotics, steroids for the baby’s lungs to develop…basically entirely too much shit. I really just want to go home, but I’m doing what’s best for this little boy. I hope he’ll stay in there a little longer than his big brother. I’m feeling a lot better now that they’ve lowered the magnesium dosage, but let me tell ya-there’s nothing more humbling than having to use a bed pan.

I’m trying to do better in 2013 overall, so I hope that you’ll bear with me and my empty promises. I’m like the boyfriend you want to break up with, but can’t…I’m really going to try this time, babies and all.



Happy new year, folks!

Let’s see if I post more this year-once a week, maybe? Our NYE was pretty quiet. I woke up with about 3 minutes to go until the countdown (hey, in 2011 I missed it completely).We went to a Kwanzaa program earlier in the day at the museum which was pretty good. There was dancing, singing, and a steel pan band. Although we enjoyed it, the lady behind us complained the entire time. The steel pan music wasn’t good, people wouldn’t give up seats they were holding, she didn’t want to eat “American food…” and this was after she nearly poked a hole in my shoulder to ask if the seat two seats over (that we weren’t holding for ANYONE) was free. Anyway, we rang in 2012 on the couch.

Later that day, we headed out to Target in search of things to make us more organized. I got a day planner, some laundry baskets, frozen fruits for smoothies…and I’ve used none of them. Sometime this year, I plan to get it together, lol. That evening we headed over to the baby’s godparents to hang out and have dinner. It was nice to be around young people (some with kids) sharing a meal and just chilling. Everyone sat around on the floor, talking and laughing. The baby enjoyed himself, as everyone gushed over his cuteness.

I’ve made a few resolutions, most of which I’m diligently working on. I’m trying to eat better, keep the house in some sort of order, and be better all around.

Hoping you all enjoyed your new year and are looking to bigger and better things in 2012!

The End of 2010

I sit here typing as my husband (not so softly) snores beside me. I’ve been up on and off since 4am. I hope I can make it to 2011, but chances are, I’ll be asleep. As the year comes to an end, I can look back at all that’s happened. I lost my job and had to collect unemployment. I started a job as a temp and was able to decide that I didn’t have to stand for a low salary just for the sake of having something full time. I became president of my sorority chapter. I threw a great baby shower. I saw my cousin get married. I got married.

2011 will bring huge changes. This year, I’m becoming a mother. This year, I’m seriously going to attack my debt. This year, I’m going to blog more. This year, I’m going to cook more. This year, I’m going to work to my full potential in every area. This year is my year.

Happy 2011, everyone!


With school and work and everything else on my plate, I haven’t found time to post. Every now and then I pop in and read, but haven’t gotten around to writing myself. Since I have some time off, I figured I’d let you know what’s going on.

I have officially finished my first sememster of grad school. The grades? 5 A’s and an incomplete, thanks to a jerk of a professor who told me I could email him my final and then claimed he never receieved it–although I sent it to him 3 seperate times. He says he’ll change it at the beginning of next semester (Jan 5th)…all I know is he better be changing it to an A. I need to send my grades somewhere so they need to look right–is a 4.0 so much to ask?

I went to a psychic. Yeah, I know, it’s crazy, but I was curious. My co-worker was telling us about him and how he said she’d have children within a year–she’s expecting in April. So I went to see him, and he told me stuff he couldn’t possible have known. He told me about my job-he knew I worked in human resources, but that I had gone to school for English. He said after the kids, I’ll be teaching English. The kids? Apparently, there will be 3 pregnancies. He told me I’d be getting married…which was my biggest fear. I swore that I was going to be an old maid and have a bunch of cats or something. It seems like every time I turn around, someone else is getting married or engaged, or starting a family. Girls I went to high school with are married with 2 and 3 kids by now. Guys I went to college with are becomming dads. People I thought would NEVER get married are engaged. And I’m still sitting around wondering if it will ever happen for me. Now I know marriage is sometimes not all it’s cracked up to be, but seeing all these engaged people every time I get on facebook depresses me. The boyfriend and I have had “the talk,” but it’s not going to happen any time soon.

I have gained so much weight, and most of it’s in my face. I’m happy to have finally moved up to a size 5/6 (from a 0), but I wish I was more toned. It is my goal to get in some kind of shape in ’09. I want to gain 6 more pounds (which would make me 130), and then start getting toned and even.

I am so lazy…I call myself having a get together next Saturday. My apartment is looking like a God awful mess, from the boxes sitting in my living room, the clothes I said I was donating that are still sitting in bags, clothes all over…and I’m sitting in bed typing this.

I’m watching Cribs…who or what made Pretty Ricky think they were hot? In what universe does 2 beds pushed together equal “grown and sexy”? All this hood rich nonsense…just plain foolish.

Anyway, I’m about to go make myself usefl, try to clean up and order food for next week…the kid is not a chef, and I want to have curry chicken and roti…so I’m off.

Another fresh new year is here . . .
Another year to live!
To banish worry, doubt, and fear,
To love and laugh and give!

This bright new year is given me
To live each day with zest . . .
To daily grow and try to be
My highest and my best!

I have the opportunity
Once more to right some wrongs,
To pray for peace, to plant a tree,
And sing more joyful songs!”

 -William Arthur Ward


Happy 2008! New year, new me. Although I say this just about every year,  I honestly am going to make changes for the ’08.  I don’t have “resolutions”, just things I plan on improving this year.


  • Eat better.  My nutrition game is severely lacking. There’s a whole lot of vitamins and minerals I know I’m missing out on…
  • Save.  This year, my checking and savings accounts will not have negative balances. I plan to pay my bills on time, starting with my rent (renting from your parents has its privileges).
  • Travel.  My itinerary for 2008 includes Toronto, Miami, Paris, and Amsterdam. We’ll see if I actually make it.
  • Be a better girlfriend. My boyfriend is so patient and I feel like I haven’t been working up to my full potential. Never settle for less than your best.
  • Clean.  Now that I live alone, there aren’t any more excuses.
  • Entertain at my home.  This will mean I’ll have to learn to be a better cook and hostess.

What are your plans for the ’08?